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 this day couldnt get any lamer..

its freezing cold outsidee!

its like it's going to snow

which might be nice but i'm ready for the sun to come out

i'm so sick of this weather i love the sunn! i like the rain but i don't like it being sooo cold

well anyways i should probably be doing homework.. but that wont get done thats for sure

which sucks i have a geometry midterm on friday  that i really really need to study for

all my other classes are good.. well i have to write two poems for enligsh.. but i never have trouble with poems!

cheer tryouts are april 24th.. i'm excited.. i know i'll make it. so theres nothing to worry about..

but i have to have to become a flyer or else i don't wanna be a cheerleader thats the only fun part of cheer!

anyways i'm really excited for new moon to come out.. november 20 2009 =)
 
stagecoach is april 25th and 26th im very excited for that..

i have to go to a funeral this weekend but the ex boyfriend is taking me shopping for a prom dress!

as for boys go nothing has changed. the ex still acts as if he doesn't need me

and the best friend just can't get enough of mee..

but its okay i love the attention!

well i was going to run today but i'm not so sure if i want to anymore.. maybe tonight after dinner! 

well i think i'm gonna go.. do something!! maybe ill post poems or somethin gayy
 

i'm starting running today..
i want to fit into a prom dress really nicely!
i think i'm going to start out with a mile and a half maybe two. ..
and thenn tomorrow i'm definitely doing three.
should i eat first then go  or go then just not eat?
i'm not sure but i think i'll eat first.

and i think i'm getting sick..
i have the sniffles.. an awful headache and i'm coming down with a sore throat..
it suckss really badlyy!! but awhhh well it happens to everyone..

my friend got dumped today by his girlfriend..
well actually it was yesterday and it was soo sad because
he is one of the livliest people i know!! 
ooo well he was all good today. well actually when i talked to him last night
he said he was okay and that he was definitely over it..
which i am very glad about because he deserves a lot better than that heartless HOE!!

i'm doing cheer next year, again... i hope i get strong bases this time!! that will be fun!
i love being a flyer.. being in the air is soo much fun!!
but cheer camp is 300 dollars!! thats crazzilyyy insane..
to learn how to do shit i already know how to doo!!! stupidd huh?!?!!

and then prom.. i need to find a dress!! lol its not until may 2nd 
but i'm looking for dresses!! woot woot
well they got a party bus.. which is really fuckin gay 
the driver said if anybody gets caught with alcohol..
then everybody gets kicked off the bus.. everybody!!
how effin dumbb!!! hahahahahah well i'm getting a garter
so that i can put a flask in it.. lol
and then when we stop so i can pee haha 
hence i live 2 hours from out destination spot!!
i will definitely downn that shizzz
but if that doesn't happen thenn the after party will be wayy funn!!!

man i'm really really boredd!! i don't know what to do..
i think i'm going to eat soo that i can run all this fatness off lol
im like 52 and 117 pounds...

 today had its ups and downs.. i suppose
i worked a lot on geometry make-up work..
because i need to pass first semester
and thenn thats basically it.
i didn't get tormented like the usual days!
and it was pretty kickback
i have a vet science test tomorrow. 
maybe i'll go study.. thats a first.
well the ex boyfriend and i talked.. of course.
and i talked to my best friend trevorrr.
which was cool
umm i don't know what else to say
im just glad this day wasn't full of drama.
and stupid hatredness!
i.am.loving.life =)

 today was boringg..
i went to school
i wore a dress to school. quite amazing huh!?
it wasn't too cold or windy so i was good!
and thenn... after school i hung around the house.
got a call from some friends, went to hangout. 
than took a friend home..
and here i am now
nothing amazing. nothing exciting.
no drama in this amaiznggggg dayy
just a plain n simple nice kick back day. 
lol could i describe it any better?!?!?

its time to let go of it all...
all of the bullshit the lies the tears that once fell from these cheeks
no they wont be falling anymore i wont hear that nonsense not again
today is the day to say goodbye, to let go of this unnessecary baggage 
you were once the boy i dreamed of everynight wishing you'd hold me tight
i don't know where that boy went i wanna know what you've done with him
i'm not saying your a bad person, because your not a bad person at all
i love you with all of me, but it's time to let go.. time to say goodbye 
i never thought i'd fall in love with you and i never thought i'd have the guts to say goodbye
but i'm cutting the string and praying to god i don't start to cry


--all by me =) this is my theory of venting.. sometimes!

i got to sleep in which was definitely satisfying
because i convinced my mom to let me stay home
which actually worked out well in the long run
we got shopping done and i baby sat and than
drove home for her when she got tired
however the ex dropped by to drop my little brother off
from school, because i wasn't there to take him home
which was very nice of him..
but we kissed! and i still love him with all of me
but i'm not letting it happen all over again..
i'm going to be venting about this probably pretty soon
however i was supposed to hangout with my friends
but my mom was lame and said no you stayed home
you can't go out, even though i went out with her!!
well back to my ex.. were going to prom together
and i don't wanna make this night hell 
because with me and him just about everything we do 
turns into shit.. don't ask why, i'm not quite sure lol ! 
i got some stuff to snazzy up my room though!!
but i'll post again!

sitting here with nothing to do..
i'm currently hating my life 
my ex boyfriend drew me back into his life
and he just crumpled me and threw me back on the floor
and steppedd alll over me like a piece of paper
i thought i meant something to him again
but i was wrong of course i was wrong
he hates me and every little thing i do 
is wrong, he is such a hypocrite
and he never wants to hangout 
or go do things 
he just comes over in the night
and we have sex.. thats it 
he doesn't love me this is a load of LUST
and IM DONE